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Prodigy
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Brave Girl
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Cheater
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Animated Gifs/Captions
A couple people have posted questions on HOW to create captions with embedded GIFs... A couple of others have sent similar questions via e-mail... I wish I could say "Just do THIS..", or just go to THIS link... but I can't :(
I decided this was something I wanted to do, so I did a little research and a LOT of trial-and-error.....
I'm almost certainly doing it in the hardest way possible, because that is about my luck :) I'll try to publish some kind of illustrated guide this coming weekend...
If I were to try and just TELL you how to do it, it would take 5,000 words, and probably contain mistakes... I'm glad some of you like them!
/hugs
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I decided this was something I wanted to do, so I did a little research and a LOT of trial-and-error.....
I'm almost certainly doing it in the hardest way possible, because that is about my luck :) I'll try to publish some kind of illustrated guide this coming weekend...
If I were to try and just TELL you how to do it, it would take 5,000 words, and probably contain mistakes... I'm glad some of you like them!
/hugs
Britney
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Coming Out With a BIG BANG!
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The Muse is DEAD.... :(
To be clear, this is NOT a "Hey, I'm back!" post.... Would that it were...
This is a "Don't worry about me, I'm still alive and kicking" post.
Apologies are warranted, and needed for my unexplained absence, but I am at a loss how to even begin. I AM sorry for leaving so abruptly with no explanation, but I doubt any explanation I can give will ever be good enough.
In a nutshell, I kept TRYING to find new ways for inspiration, and failed miserably.
About 1/4 of the way into creating some kind of tutorial on making an animated caption, I had an epiphany, or maybe just a moment of clarity. I was never going to "get" from creating and posting captions what I wanted and needed. I have a hole in my heart, in my soul, and this is NOT filling it, only mildly alleviating the symptoms, albeit temporarily.
All of my relationships within the TG Caption and general TG community are unequal. I approach every one of them, even my relationship with "fans" of my Blog as an inferior, desperately seeking approval and acceptance. It's a personality flaw. I'm that really needy kid, desperately trying too hard to get accepted into the "cool kids" clique. It'll never happen, because deep down inside I am convinced I don't belong there. Even on the off-chance that I was accepted, I would never FEEL that way, and be constantly plagued by self-doubt.
It's what us older people used to call an "inferiority complex".... I don't know what you kids call it these days :)
On the one hand, I LOGICALLY know that many of my captions are well done... Well written and presented. On the other hand, I know of many caption creators that make a lot of work vastly superior to mine. It makes my work seem futile.
That, coupled with my belief that there really aren't any new stories, only new pictures, I find incredibly demoralizing. My "method" has always been that I see a pic, and the story is more or less clear to me from the beginning. It's almost a matter of just dictating it, and tweaking it to fit into the available space. Unfortunately, these days I still get that "completed story" feeling looking at a lot of pictures, but I KNOW that the story I am seeing it not really original or unique in any significant way. Basically, I have "been there, done that"....
The bottom line is, I don't know, and largely don't CARE if I'll ever create another caption in my life. The mojo, and my "muse" are just gone.
The only reason I'm writing this is for the small group of people, and you know who you are, that I corresponded with, in and outside of this blog. I am alive, and well, at least physically, and I feel bad that I have left you hanging. I wish you all the best... On your your captions, on your Blogs, and on your lives. I wish you HAPPINESS :)
/hugs
Britney
This is a "Don't worry about me, I'm still alive and kicking" post.
Apologies are warranted, and needed for my unexplained absence, but I am at a loss how to even begin. I AM sorry for leaving so abruptly with no explanation, but I doubt any explanation I can give will ever be good enough.
In a nutshell, I kept TRYING to find new ways for inspiration, and failed miserably.
About 1/4 of the way into creating some kind of tutorial on making an animated caption, I had an epiphany, or maybe just a moment of clarity. I was never going to "get" from creating and posting captions what I wanted and needed. I have a hole in my heart, in my soul, and this is NOT filling it, only mildly alleviating the symptoms, albeit temporarily.
All of my relationships within the TG Caption and general TG community are unequal. I approach every one of them, even my relationship with "fans" of my Blog as an inferior, desperately seeking approval and acceptance. It's a personality flaw. I'm that really needy kid, desperately trying too hard to get accepted into the "cool kids" clique. It'll never happen, because deep down inside I am convinced I don't belong there. Even on the off-chance that I was accepted, I would never FEEL that way, and be constantly plagued by self-doubt.
It's what us older people used to call an "inferiority complex".... I don't know what you kids call it these days :)
On the one hand, I LOGICALLY know that many of my captions are well done... Well written and presented. On the other hand, I know of many caption creators that make a lot of work vastly superior to mine. It makes my work seem futile.
That, coupled with my belief that there really aren't any new stories, only new pictures, I find incredibly demoralizing. My "method" has always been that I see a pic, and the story is more or less clear to me from the beginning. It's almost a matter of just dictating it, and tweaking it to fit into the available space. Unfortunately, these days I still get that "completed story" feeling looking at a lot of pictures, but I KNOW that the story I am seeing it not really original or unique in any significant way. Basically, I have "been there, done that"....
The bottom line is, I don't know, and largely don't CARE if I'll ever create another caption in my life. The mojo, and my "muse" are just gone.
The only reason I'm writing this is for the small group of people, and you know who you are, that I corresponded with, in and outside of this blog. I am alive, and well, at least physically, and I feel bad that I have left you hanging. I wish you all the best... On your your captions, on your Blogs, and on your lives. I wish you HAPPINESS :)
/hugs
Britney
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500K page views :) Thanks......
I was more than a little surprised to find that my basically abandoned Blog was still garnering a few hits.... Apparently, about 10 days ago, it hit 500K total page views :) Thanks for that...
My graphic of traffic looks like an erect penis :)
I honestly have NO idea what I going to do.. With this Blog, or anything... I'm looking for SOMETHING, and this Blog isn't really "doing it" for me, but it's also better than NOTHING....
Just like the definition of insanity, I keep trying basically the same thing, EXPECTING different results :)
I've tried it with Facebook, Online Gaming, Rachel's Haven, Blogger, IMDB (Internet Movie Database) and now even Tumblr... All of it is distracting somewhat, but not very fulfilling. It's all dreadfully complicated, as I can't do ANY of these things as the "real" me, because I am firmly closeted...
I have something like 7 different online identities..., excluding poor, biologically MALE me :)
One for Facebook.... One for gaming.... An "Alt" for Facebook... One for RH and Blogger.... An "Alt" for Blogger, One for IMDB, and a new one for Tumblr.... It's exhausting....
I'm not even sure what I'm looking FOR... Friendship? Companionship? I don't know....
I may very well post a caption or two sometime in the near future... I still WANT to create, but my motivation is very much dimmed by the knowledge that I will never get the feedback I really desire or NEED from caption creation.
On the other hand, I am painfully shy and awkward in "real" life, and have to hide a major part of my true persona (the FEMALE "me"), which is terribly frustrating and soul-crushing...
I don't know what I am going to do....
My graphic of traffic looks like an erect penis :)
I honestly have NO idea what I going to do.. With this Blog, or anything... I'm looking for SOMETHING, and this Blog isn't really "doing it" for me, but it's also better than NOTHING....
Just like the definition of insanity, I keep trying basically the same thing, EXPECTING different results :)
I've tried it with Facebook, Online Gaming, Rachel's Haven, Blogger, IMDB (Internet Movie Database) and now even Tumblr... All of it is distracting somewhat, but not very fulfilling. It's all dreadfully complicated, as I can't do ANY of these things as the "real" me, because I am firmly closeted...
I have something like 7 different online identities..., excluding poor, biologically MALE me :)
One for Facebook.... One for gaming.... An "Alt" for Facebook... One for RH and Blogger.... An "Alt" for Blogger, One for IMDB, and a new one for Tumblr.... It's exhausting....
I'm not even sure what I'm looking FOR... Friendship? Companionship? I don't know....
I may very well post a caption or two sometime in the near future... I still WANT to create, but my motivation is very much dimmed by the knowledge that I will never get the feedback I really desire or NEED from caption creation.
On the other hand, I am painfully shy and awkward in "real" life, and have to hide a major part of my true persona (the FEMALE "me"), which is terribly frustrating and soul-crushing...
I don't know what I am going to do....
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Consequences
Apologies in advance.... I am VERY rusty, having not penned a caption in several months.... This is something of an experiment for me, to see if I can force myself to NOT post as often, and break my pattern of frustration.....
This is not one of my "best" efforts, obviously, just wading in the shallow end, testing the water :)
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This is not one of my "best" efforts, obviously, just wading in the shallow end, testing the water :)
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Sacrifices
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Mea Culpa....
It should come as no huge surprise to many, but I have a "secret". Several people have already guessed it, and others I have told myself. Doubtless several others have suspected or surmised, but have been too polite to shatter my "illusion".
I am not particularly new to the TG community, nor am I new to making captions. "Britney" was an identity I created, attempting to escape a persona that I felt had become increasingly limiting and frustrating. I honestly didn't see any other way out in which I could keep my sanity intact.
It didn't really work all that well.... As I said, many people guessed it, and I felt guilty to many friends that I had. I knew they would be devastated to learn that I had deceived them, and even more so if they found that OTHERS knew and they didn't. So, I was stuck. My fresh start, my new beginning, was stymied before it really began.
Before I drag this all out, and wallow in my story, I guess I should "identify" myself... I used to be known as Steffi, orSteffimariechen. I've been making caps since the Yahoo groups days, where I had 5 groups hosting about 2k of my captions, I played around at A Bimbo Sanctuary and Rachel's Haven for a while, and this is actually probably my 5th or 6th Blog...
I have re-activated my two most recent "Steffi" Blogs, Steffimariechen's TG Captions& Steffi's Naughty Bits. You'll find about 900-1000 caps of mine over there... My prior Blog(s) and Yahoo groups were not "backed up", so that work is gone for good, apparently....
The decision to "kill" Steffi was not one I took lightly. She was and has been my "main" and ONLY online femme persona (until now) since I dared to "come out" online. I have been "Steffi/Steffimariechen" in some form or fashion for about 15 years. I don't know if I can explain the whys and wherefores so that anyone outside of my personal friends can actually understand, but I'll try...
I have a "main" fantasy. I always have had this fantasy, and I believe I always will. It boils doen to being WILLINGLY transformed with the aid of a loving and caring female, so that I may live out my life as TG/Sissy or fully female, to be with a GIRL of my dreams. That's it.
No "forced".... No "humiliation"... No "punishment"... etc... etc...
Over the years, I discovered that while my main fantasy had NOT changed, I did nevertheless enjoy having other fantasies, and creating captions about them.
The one HUGE "stumbling block" I had was the entire concept of my "femme"persona, even in a caption, willingly being attracted to a MAN, or actually ENJOYING having sex with one. The very idea was anathema to me, and I suppose it was in large part due to shame or embarrassment. I had several public and private debates about the subject. with close friends, and total strangers, and I ended up exhausted and frustrated.
Finally, I felt I had too much "history" to successfully branch out and explore new themes, whether they involve male/female or male/TG sex, or simply be more purely sexual in nature, I felt very strongly that "Steffi" had too much damn baggage, and people would constantly judge and "filter" what they saw and read based on who WROTE it.
That, coupled with my now pretty legendary rants/debates about Blog Feedback/Comments had me feeling pretty "pigeonholed". I wanted a change.... I desperately needed a CHANGE, so I abandoned and DELETED my Blog and created "Britney" and her Blog.
It was clear in the first week that my subterfuge would ultimately fail due to one simple thing... Google. There was NO way to disguise the fact that I live in Germany. Anyone paying any attention at ALL, would know that there just aren't that many prolific English-speaking TG caption-creators living in Germany. And every single Blog address and post address, Google just had to "convert" from ".com" to ".de", so anyone with a clue could see I was posting from Germany/Deutschland :(
So, my attempt to "break free", and reduce my feeling of stress totally backfired... I actually got MORE stress, as more and more people "figured out" my little secret... I was trying to juggle too much, and it wasn't working. That, coupled with my ongoing frustration with lack of feedback made me feel hopeless and abandoned.
I'm trying now a NEW tack... FULL disclosure, and within my abilities, I'll be as open an honest as I can.
Doubtless some of you will feel betrayed that I "pulled one over" on you... Likely many others will just chuckle, with a "Yeah, we weren't fooled for a a second...". I apologize if my antics hurt anybody's feelings. That was not my intent.
My "plan", such as it is, is to keep all THREE Blogs up and running. It will be a work in progress, deciding which caps go where, and why, so I beg your further indulgence while I work that out...
I could go on and on, but the bottom line is THIS..... I truly wish I could just be "Britney" with a clean, fresh start. Since I clearly cannot have that, the next best thing is to just "own"it, and continue to try and grow and change... So not a "clean" new start, but a new start nonetheless :)
I am not particularly new to the TG community, nor am I new to making captions. "Britney" was an identity I created, attempting to escape a persona that I felt had become increasingly limiting and frustrating. I honestly didn't see any other way out in which I could keep my sanity intact.
It didn't really work all that well.... As I said, many people guessed it, and I felt guilty to many friends that I had. I knew they would be devastated to learn that I had deceived them, and even more so if they found that OTHERS knew and they didn't. So, I was stuck. My fresh start, my new beginning, was stymied before it really began.
Before I drag this all out, and wallow in my story, I guess I should "identify" myself... I used to be known as Steffi, orSteffimariechen. I've been making caps since the Yahoo groups days, where I had 5 groups hosting about 2k of my captions, I played around at A Bimbo Sanctuary and Rachel's Haven for a while, and this is actually probably my 5th or 6th Blog...
I have re-activated my two most recent "Steffi" Blogs, Steffimariechen's TG Captions& Steffi's Naughty Bits. You'll find about 900-1000 caps of mine over there... My prior Blog(s) and Yahoo groups were not "backed up", so that work is gone for good, apparently....
The decision to "kill" Steffi was not one I took lightly. She was and has been my "main" and ONLY online femme persona (until now) since I dared to "come out" online. I have been "Steffi/Steffimariechen" in some form or fashion for about 15 years. I don't know if I can explain the whys and wherefores so that anyone outside of my personal friends can actually understand, but I'll try...
I have a "main" fantasy. I always have had this fantasy, and I believe I always will. It boils doen to being WILLINGLY transformed with the aid of a loving and caring female, so that I may live out my life as TG/Sissy or fully female, to be with a GIRL of my dreams. That's it.
No "forced".... No "humiliation"... No "punishment"... etc... etc...
Over the years, I discovered that while my main fantasy had NOT changed, I did nevertheless enjoy having other fantasies, and creating captions about them.
The one HUGE "stumbling block" I had was the entire concept of my "femme"persona, even in a caption, willingly being attracted to a MAN, or actually ENJOYING having sex with one. The very idea was anathema to me, and I suppose it was in large part due to shame or embarrassment. I had several public and private debates about the subject. with close friends, and total strangers, and I ended up exhausted and frustrated.
Finally, I felt I had too much "history" to successfully branch out and explore new themes, whether they involve male/female or male/TG sex, or simply be more purely sexual in nature, I felt very strongly that "Steffi" had too much damn baggage, and people would constantly judge and "filter" what they saw and read based on who WROTE it.
That, coupled with my now pretty legendary rants/debates about Blog Feedback/Comments had me feeling pretty "pigeonholed". I wanted a change.... I desperately needed a CHANGE, so I abandoned and DELETED my Blog and created "Britney" and her Blog.
It was clear in the first week that my subterfuge would ultimately fail due to one simple thing... Google. There was NO way to disguise the fact that I live in Germany. Anyone paying any attention at ALL, would know that there just aren't that many prolific English-speaking TG caption-creators living in Germany. And every single Blog address and post address, Google just had to "convert" from ".com" to ".de", so anyone with a clue could see I was posting from Germany/Deutschland :(
So, my attempt to "break free", and reduce my feeling of stress totally backfired... I actually got MORE stress, as more and more people "figured out" my little secret... I was trying to juggle too much, and it wasn't working. That, coupled with my ongoing frustration with lack of feedback made me feel hopeless and abandoned.
I'm trying now a NEW tack... FULL disclosure, and within my abilities, I'll be as open an honest as I can.
Doubtless some of you will feel betrayed that I "pulled one over" on you... Likely many others will just chuckle, with a "Yeah, we weren't fooled for a a second...". I apologize if my antics hurt anybody's feelings. That was not my intent.
My "plan", such as it is, is to keep all THREE Blogs up and running. It will be a work in progress, deciding which caps go where, and why, so I beg your further indulgence while I work that out...
I could go on and on, but the bottom line is THIS..... I truly wish I could just be "Britney" with a clean, fresh start. Since I clearly cannot have that, the next best thing is to just "own"it, and continue to try and grow and change... So not a "clean" new start, but a new start nonetheless :)
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Hello, God (From Steffimariechen's TG Captions)
This is one of my all-time favorite captions from Steffi's Blog. Some may argue that is not a caption at all, because it tells no story, but I do not care. You could not possibly better represent the true, inner "me" in a single panel, than THIS.
If you were a fan/follower of my work over at the old Blog, I hope this brings back fond memories. If you were not, I hope this might entice you to visit there. There is quite a variety of caps there, from cute and funny, to dark and sexy, to even ones like this one.
Links for the old Blog(s) are on the top of the right sidebar :)
PS... I copied the "Ron's Summer Dream" Page from my Steffi Blog, pretty much for the same reason I chose to post THIS caption. You COULD read my "About Me" Page, or my "Caption Philosophy" Page, or whatever... But all you REALLY need to know about me and/or my motivation(s) is included in "Ron's Summer Dream" :)
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The Maid
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Best Friends
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The Experiment
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I am part of the "Problem"....
I know full well, and better than most, how much comments/feedback can mean to a caption creator/blogger... Yet quite often, I don't comment, either...
I basically give myself a "pass", because I generally post so much more content than your average Blogger, but that's a cop-out. It really does only take a few moments to take the time to give someone a simple "thank you"...
Now, when I "take a break", as I just did, I do just that. I did not view, read or attempt to create any captions for several months. That means that those of you who did have a HUGE backlog (for me) of content that I am just largely ignorant of.
I "follow" about 100 Blogs... It is just not realistic or feasible to attempt to comment on every single Blog. It also neither realistic nor feasible to attempt to go back through all that I have missed and "catch up"... Even if I restricted myself to my dozen or so "favorite" Blogs, I would be able to nothing ELSE for several days, maybe even weeks :(
All that I can do is promise to try and do better in the future, and I DO...
I am still in the ongoing process of updating and tweaking my Blogs, especially the main "Steffi" one, but I should be more or less done with the big stuff within a few days. Afterwards, I will try very hard to give the feedback to you that I so desperately need and want myself.
Anything less would just be hypocritical...
/hugs
I basically give myself a "pass", because I generally post so much more content than your average Blogger, but that's a cop-out. It really does only take a few moments to take the time to give someone a simple "thank you"...
Now, when I "take a break", as I just did, I do just that. I did not view, read or attempt to create any captions for several months. That means that those of you who did have a HUGE backlog (for me) of content that I am just largely ignorant of.
I "follow" about 100 Blogs... It is just not realistic or feasible to attempt to comment on every single Blog. It also neither realistic nor feasible to attempt to go back through all that I have missed and "catch up"... Even if I restricted myself to my dozen or so "favorite" Blogs, I would be able to nothing ELSE for several days, maybe even weeks :(
All that I can do is promise to try and do better in the future, and I DO...
I am still in the ongoing process of updating and tweaking my Blogs, especially the main "Steffi" one, but I should be more or less done with the big stuff within a few days. Afterwards, I will try very hard to give the feedback to you that I so desperately need and want myself.
Anything less would just be hypocritical...
/hugs
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Pretty Little Liar
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Ironclad
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Indebted
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Party Princess
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Nancy
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